Letting Go To Know

Sometimes it may seem impossible or at least agonizing to live with not knowing what's next, or what to do or what if.  Letting go of that can seem like a feat beyond our understanding.  How do you let go?  Willingness is the first step.  Being willing or at least being willing to be willing will help us to  move in that direction.  If we are not willing we can ask ourselves what is keeping me from being willing to let go of the need to know?

The answer to that question is usually some form of fear and it often shows up as the need to control.  Some part of us knows we really can't control all outcomes, but we like to think we can at least try!  The truth is the more we can let go and listen to our inner guidance system the more peace we will experience in the process and the "answers" can come to us as we are now peaceful enough to hear them.

"But I can't let go! It keeps whirling around in my head no matter what I do!"  Then let it whirl and focus your attention on the next thing in front of you.  The answers will come, they always do.

Forgiveness the Gateway to Moving Through Grief

"Forgiveness is giving up the hope that the past could have been any different.  Letting go of the past that we thought we wanted." Oprah, The 21 Day Meditation Challenge with Deepak Chopra

I recently heard Oprah stating the above quote, and it resonated in that place within me that says, "Ah ha.  That is the key to what I have been seeking."  Little did I know that even though she practically said it in that statement, forgiveness could be the gateway to moving through grief.  Or, maybe it was the resistance to forgive that brought me to the gate and the willingness to allow Oprah's statement to work through me moment by moment that opened the gate.

Sitting with the statement, patiently a clear path began to unfold before me. When I say patiently, I mean being with it moment by moment even when it feels like I am getting nowhere. I mean after sitting with it in the quiet I got up and continued on with my day.  I mean having the faith that what looks like no understanding, no progress on the outside doesn't mean it isn't "working."  I could feel that it was hitting on a place within me.  I didn't understand.  I couldn't put it into words, but I was willing to wait.

After waiting with it a couple of days and many tears from my core I began to feel the lightness, the freedom we so often hear we receive through the process of forgiveness. I felt like a secret had been revealed to me.  So many times I had been willing to forgive but felt it had alluded me.  In this experience I had learned that by opening up to it and allowing the process to move through me on faith,
the forgiveness had come to me and yes it truly gave me the feeling of being set free.